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Winter again.

cold long nights darkness expands anxiety avoidant drained again quiet different not myself again [but it is the half of me] I hide each winter so no one sees words hit me like knives everything is personal paranoid assuming isolated … Continue reading

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Ask and you shall recieve an answer if nothing else.

My life has calmed so much in the last few weeks. I recently moved and now live alone in a studio apartment. It’s adorable. I’ve lived alone one other time when I was 21 but I was different then. More … Continue reading

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Daybreak

What a day Emotions astray Loving you is easy This distance does eat me Longing for your touch Off to work to say too much  Remembering the subtle things  Wishing you were near me Clock is 8 first break Sun … Continue reading

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Crash

I feel it creeping in. Longer sleep and slower thoughts. Anxiety raises and overwhelms. Second guessing all my dreams. Feeling darkness calling me. No strength to fight it, I let it come and hope everything doesn’t come undone. Worry like … Continue reading

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Capacity 

I feel like being bipolar has given me a higher capacity for good and bad. I can feel more than most people. I can be more excited and feel more love than most. I can also feel darkness far more … Continue reading

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All is fair.

What a war we fight constantly defending ourselves from our thoughts constantly trying to remind ourselves what is real what a war we fight trying to explain why we cannot go  trying to be casual and normal for everyone’s sake … Continue reading

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