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Feeling better

My last appointment with my doctor was 10 minutes if that. The usual rate your mood questions. Followed by her asking if I was still off medicine. I am it’s almost been a year now other than the occasional klonopin … Continue reading

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Old poetry

The fire she holds she hides She’s burning alive The flicker of the candle Now becomes a flame Energy surrounding me And I’ll never be the same Victory of sweet release Not torn by the inbetween Of being who I … Continue reading

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Anxiety

I started taking lithium again recently. Spring is fast approaching and it seems to always catch me off gaurd. I’ve been feeling way more anxious, obsessive, and finding it harder to sleep even when I’m exhausted. I’m a believer that … Continue reading

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Winter again.

cold long nights darkness expands anxiety avoidant drained again quiet different not myself again [but it is the half of me] I hide each winter so no one sees words hit me like knives everything is personal paranoid assuming isolated … Continue reading

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How to be an emotional creature but also not ruin your life.

We can’t control our emotions. No one can. They come in waves or hurricanes. I’ve had times that I felt a slave to mine. I let them control me and blamed them for my actions. I still have my off … Continue reading

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Ask and you shall recieve an answer if nothing else.

My life has calmed so much in the last few weeks. I recently moved and now live alone in a studio apartment. It’s adorable. I’ve lived alone one other time when I was 21 but I was different then. More … Continue reading

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Unpopular

I have an appointment with my psych in 20 minutes. I’m waiting outside in my car. I’m nervous. I stopped taking medicine the last two months and have been using cbd as needed for sleep and anxiety. I feel natural … Continue reading

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Pendulum 

I feel bars on my heart How does it start Puzzles that don’t exist Stay up late to solve them all My mind becomes a prison Reaching out is hard So I push away  Let the emotions eat at me … Continue reading

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Daybreak

What a day Emotions astray Loving you is easy This distance does eat me Longing for your touch Off to work to say too much  Remembering the subtle things  Wishing you were near me Clock is 8 first break Sun … Continue reading

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Acceptance

I think one of the major challenges not only for someone with bipolar disorder but anyone in life is the fact that we judge ourselves, our feelings, our thoughts and our own opinions. It’s hard to be comfortable with who … Continue reading

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