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About lifewithbipolardisorderweb

I am a free-spirit, minimalist, and loner. INFP, Pisces, Ennegram 4.

Building a safety net

Being bipolar means answering the question, “Do you have support?” You’re told that support means someone or a group of someones around you that understand you and will be there for you. What they don’t tell you is this is … Continue reading

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Ask and you shall recieve an answer if nothing else.

My life has calmed so much in the last few weeks. I recently moved and now live alone in a studio apartment. It’s adorable. I’ve lived alone one other time when I was 21 but I was different then. More … Continue reading

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Unpopular

I have an appointment with my psych in 20 minutes. I’m waiting outside in my car. I’m nervous. I stopped taking medicine the last two months and have been using cbd as needed for sleep and anxiety. I feel natural … Continue reading

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I am more than enough.

I have “I am enough” written on all my mirrors, for the last 9 months or so, to train my thoughts to be more positive. Today while unpacking I noticed that my brother had added to it. Means so much … Continue reading

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Pendulum 

I feel bars on my heart How does it start Puzzles that don’t exist Stay up late to solve them all My mind becomes a prison Reaching out is hard So I push away  Let the emotions eat at me … Continue reading

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Daybreak

What a day Emotions astray Loving you is easy This distance does eat me Longing for your touch Off to work to say too much  Remembering the subtle things  Wishing you were near me Clock is 8 first break Sun … Continue reading

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Acceptance

I think one of the major challenges not only for someone with bipolar disorder but anyone in life is the fact that we judge ourselves, our feelings, our thoughts and our own opinions. It’s hard to be comfortable with who … Continue reading

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Not an endorsement, grain of salt

So for the last few weeks, I’ve been trying out CBD Marijuana. I live in a state that it is legal. I just go to the shop and buy some. I’m lucky to have people close to me that are … Continue reading

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Crash

I feel it creeping in. Longer sleep and slower thoughts. Anxiety raises and overwhelms. Second guessing all my dreams. Feeling darkness calling me. No strength to fight it, I let it come and hope everything doesn’t come undone. Worry like … Continue reading

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Capacity 

I feel like being bipolar has given me a higher capacity for good and bad. I can feel more than most people. I can be more excited and feel more love than most. I can also feel darkness far more … Continue reading

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